A few thoughts on this Tuesday morning.
*I ordered the roadway cross with Kalkidan’s name and dates on it; it should arrive later this week. I can’t even imagine opening the box – or when I do imagine it, I feel sick to my stomach. I’m going to leave it for Russ to open and I’ll look at it when I can, or maybe when we put it in the ground.
*Her birthday is in nine days – Lord have mercy.
*I’ve never felt so quiet and speechless in my life.
*I was reading a book about vocation and the author wrote something like, “perhaps your calling is caring for orphans,” and right there in my living room I began to cry – hard. It feels like loving orphans has been the hardest and best thing I’ve ever done.
*Last Saturday I decluttered our linen cupboard, which is really an armoire; the linen cupboard in our house was built for a family of four. It made me happy.
*When a wave of sadness hits me, I instinctively cross my arms tightly over my chest, like a hug, and hold on until the feeling passes.
*Russ is working crazy, long hours right now, which means the kids and I are on our own much of the time. We’re doing okay, but we miss him.
*Wogauyu is having a hard time focusing at school. I know he is a typical nine year-old boy, but I have to wonder if grief is affecting him too.
*Claire finished her volleyball season last week; she loved it. I’m glad we’ll have more time for homeschooling and that she will have more time for training her puppy. The puppy is both adorable and a handful.
*Last Sunday we had a small crowd of 14 here for dinner, including some of Annarose’s new college friends. It was a joy to have them – they even helped cook and clean up.
The kids are coming down the stairs; it’s time to make breakfast and help the boys pack their lunches. Thank you for reading and caring. Have a wonderful day, friends.
Lisa
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October 20, 2015
Hugging you from across the miles, Lisa.
October 20, 2015
Thank you, Julie. I've been following your health journey on FB – great job!
October 20, 2015
Good to hear from you. Still praying for you.
October 20, 2015
Thank you for your prayers, Alisa. Will I see you at the Called to Love retreat?
October 20, 2015
I hope you have a beautiful day. Wish I could give you a hug when those waves of grief come. Much love to you!
October 20, 2015
I would take a hug from you! So far today feels pretty good.
October 20, 2015
It is good to hear from you. ((( Hugs )))
October 20, 2015
It felt kind of good to write something this morning – hopefully that is a good sign! Thanks for taking a moment to encourage me, Michelle.
October 20, 2015
You're most welcome. Your blog is an encouragement to me.
October 20, 2015
Still praying for you. I love what Wogauyu wrote about the Lord. What a blessing and great reminder for all of us!
October 20, 2015
When I saw his notes, it touched my heart. I'm so thankful for my kids.
October 20, 2015
Just want you to know . . . you are in my thoughts and prayers, often.
October 20, 2015
Thank you, Laurel.
October 20, 2015
Sending you hugs and wishing you peace.
October 24, 2015
Laura, thank you.
October 21, 2015
I've been thinking about Kalkidan a lot as her birthday draws near. Hugs.
October 24, 2015
Joelle, You should probably come visit and bake a cake in Kalkidan's honor.
October 22, 2015
I echo your thoughts – may God grant you an extra portion of His mercy on Kalkidan's birthday – and each and every day. As Isaiah says, "when you walk through the fire – it will not consume you. And when you walk through the flood – it will not overwhelm." (Paraphrased of course:)
May you continue to cling to the truth of God's goodness as you wait in expectation for His glory to be revealed.
Much love to you – Gena
October 24, 2015
Thank you so much, Gena.