Last week I pushed myself way out of my comfort zone for the sake of connection.
Being a mom for 32 years has taught me that doing what feels good to me doesn’t lead to close relationships with the people I love. This is how I found myself layered in a down jacket and snow pants spending the day in a snow-covered sagebrush meadow.
In the spirit of being a supportive mom, I chaperoned Wogayu’s 6th-grade class trip to McCall Outdoor Science School. I’m not great at committing when I have no idea what to expect, and I was worried about two things: being cold and not sleeping.
McCall is beautiful. The drive reminded me how much I love Idaho; there’s so much room to breathe. The landscape is turning green and the views were spectacular.
I shared a cabin with seven girls I’d never met. They were excited and could have talked all night; I fell asleep before they did both nights. Tuesday morning we gathered our group of kids for a full day outdoors in the snow. Thankfully, despite it being May, I obeyed the packing list and had warm clothes and snow boots.
I loved watching the kids explore, observe, and learn – the homeschooling mama in me took it all in. I also really enjoyed seeing Wogayu in the midst of his peers as they worked together.
Leaving Wednesday was a little sad – I felt like I was just settling in and getting to know the kids. But I needed to be back for Claire’s track meet since the season is nearly over and I hadn’t made it to one yet.
As I wrote in my weekly email (which I would love to send to you):
I’m so used to thinking I can’t do things like this. For years I had babies, lots of babies, so it was an obvious “No.” Then I had children I couldn’t possibly leave and we were barely surviving. That season was followed by four years of recovering, grieving, and still dealing with significant challenges.
Here’s the good news, friend. We won’t stay in the hardest of the hard forever with our kids. God is always working, always loving us, always with us – and there is hope. I would never have believed life would become more stable and I would have more capacity. I couldn’t even lift my head to imagine a good future.
Even one year ago I wouldn’t have considered going. It still felt so hard to be with lots of other people, especially strangers and I didn’t have the capacity to do something completely new.
I’m just so glad I said, “Yes.”
SO many details to share:
Mother’s Day is coming soon and it can be bittersweet, especially for adoptive and foster moms. Melissa and I share five practical tips for navigating this complex day in episode #36 of The Adoption Connection podcast.
During the month of April, we read Faith, Hope, & Connection: A 30-Day Devotional for Adoptive and Foster Parents, together in my private Facebook group. The conversations were so sweet. If you haven’t read it yet and you need a boost of encouragement, grab a copy and join the group. The daily discussion posts are easy to find and it’s never too late to join the conversation.
I’ll be speaking at the Replanted Conference (formerly Refresh Chicago) October 24-26. Join me!
Lastly, the deadline for submitting my book manuscript is nearly here (May 13th) and I have a big week of wrapping up details in addition to celebrating Annarose’s college graduation next Saturday. It’s going to be quite a week!
Courage and hope, my friends.