My plans for an Independence Day post faded away last night as I lay next to Dimples stroking her head as she fell asleep. I was discouraged — honestly, I was much more than discouraged. As she drifted off, I whispered, “You’re going to be okay.” Her eyes shot open and she said, “No, I’m not!”
I breathed slowly, trying to calm myself after a long and stressful evening.
“Daddy and I love you.” She was quiet.
Resting next to her, I thought about how utterly dependent I am on the Lord. Any independence I think I have is a joke – I breathe in and out, because He gives me life.
Dimples wrapped her arm tightly around me and I silently prayed, “Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.” It was all I could manage; this simple prayer flowed through my mind. I wanted more — more love, more kindness, more of Jesus.
Then I remembered my 27th anniversary prayer from Psalm 27, and my heart lifted just a little,
I would have lost heart , unless I had believed, that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord! Ps. 27: 13-14
Yes, the goodness of the Lord, that is what I want in my child’s life, in my heart, and flowing down over our family.
Utterly dependent on grace,
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