Leaving the Cocoon

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It had to happen. For nearly three months I’ve hardly left my house, but last Saturday I found myself at the grocery store and realized that I am emerging from my cocoon. My world was very small for many weeks, revolving around physical therapy and a few other medical appointments. Then we added church, and finally our small group. I even met a friend for coffee last week.

I would still rather be home than anywhere else. I can feel whatever I need to feel, be quiet (answering the phone only when I feel up for it), and I never have to make small talk. I’m finding, though, that when I make myself leave the house, I’m nearly always glad. I pace myself because I still get tired quickly, but as my body heals, my heart is coming along as well.

I find myself wanting to see friends, laughing a little more, and even wanting to get back to some decluttering projects. My sister, Laura, arrived last night and is here for the week. Her past two visits have revolved around driving me to PT and taking care of my kids. This time we’re planning to cook a few meals for the freezer, go to my book group, and have dinner with all of our big kids.

We even hosted a small Easter gathering, nothing like the big, crazy gatherings of past years, but we had friends in our home. Thankfully, the weather was nice enough for the kids to play outside which made it a relatively calm affair. I was exhausted at the end of the day, but I felt a little more like myself than I have in awhile.

Slowly, slowly, I’m emerging from my safe place and it’s okay.

Friends, I hope you had a good Easter. It was an emotional day for us, but we made it through, hugging each other and taking lots of deep breaths.




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Let me introduce myself. Russ and I are the parents of twelve children by birth and adoption, and sometimes more through foster care. I'm the creator of One Thankful Mom which has been as much of a gift to me as to my readers. In 2011 I became a TBRI® Pracitioner* and have lived and breathed connected parenting ever since. I'm deeply honored to be the co-author, together with the late Dr. Karyn Purvis, of The Connected Parent; it is her final written work. I love speaking at events for adoptive and foster parents. I'm also the co-founder of The Adoption Connection, a podcast and resource site for adoptive moms. I mentor and encourage adoptive moms so you can find courage and hope in your journeys of loving your children well.


  1. Gwen Dolen
    April 7, 2015

    I have followed your journey for a long time now and have been quiet lately…..I am so grateful and proud that you are able to be out and about. You should be proud too. Thank you for allowing us to walk with you in this….it offers me strength on days I think I cannot get through the "smaller" things life has handed us.

  2. Chantelle
    April 7, 2015


  3. Michelle
    April 7, 2015

    Constantly thinking of you and so thankful to see the progression of healing in your heart. Takes intentional surrender to start moving forward with life after such a loss. (((hugs)))

  4. Joelle
    April 7, 2015

    I thought about you during church this Easter. Resurrection power had more meaning and poignancy for me this year.

  5. thandilocks
    April 7, 2015

    Enjoy her visit!

  6. So very bummed that I can't be with you more often. Have a great time with Laura and enjoy being exactly who you want to be. I love you lots!

  7. dorothy
    April 14, 2015

    Hugs – from one 'newly emergent' friend to another. (you made me giggle with the small talk comment….I have felt exactly the same way!)


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