Life is filled with ups and downs. The last two weeks we’ve had more downs than ups with one of our kids and I find that fear is creeping in and weighing on me. Each day I wake up telling myself that God’s mercies to me are new every morning, and my mercies toward my child need to be the same. But then the morning starts and challenging behaviors begin; the other children’s eyes grow big and they scurry to stay out of the way — and it’s difficult.
We’ve had so many good days and weeks; I know it’s possible, but we can’t seem to get back to that. I keep searching for just the right thing that might turn it all around. More nurture, more structure, more play, more quiet, more protein, more listening, and the list goes on. The last several days have been packed, but today I have a little quiet to think, pray, and connect with some helpful folks. Hopefully we can get the train back on the track.
Last night Russ and I sat in the dark living room with just the lights on our Christmas tree shining. We were both very discouraged, but having twenty minutes of calm was restorative. Our family jokes about an old YouTube video where the woman says, “Calm it down, calm it down, calm it down. Calm. It. Down.” We need some of that.
This is the last week of school before Christmas break, which is both wonderful and unsettling. Despite all of my plans, I still have more than a few gifts to buy. Noah finished finals last Friday, so yesterday we went to Costco where I managed to find a few more gifts and lots of food for upcoming family gatherings. Usually we see Noah and Katie in the midst of a busy Sunday, so it was fun to have time to visit, and I really appreciated his help loading and unloading the car!
Isaiah is wrapping up his first semester of college and Samuel is finishing his first semester of grad school. Noah conquered his first semester of medical school. Until I wrote this, I hadn’t realized how many firsts my guys are experiencing. We’re so proud of them.
This afternoon I’m off to Little Man’s Christmas concert where I’m quite sure he is going to be adorable. He’s wearing a tie – what else matters?
Have a great day, friends.
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