Life continues to feel slightly more normal. I’m getting stronger, sleeping better, and overall, having much less pain. It’s somewhat easier to leave the house and go out into the world. I’ve made it to the grocery store, baseball games, Bible study, track meets, and even gone out to dinner with friends.
It’s all good; the challenge is that it’s almost too good. Time for physical therapy, daily walks, reading and reflecting, writing, and even working on thank you notes has all but disappeared. Last weekend I realized with a rush of panic that I’ve let it slip away and let life rush in.
I waded into the river and it felt pretty good, then I stepped a little farther out, and now I’m caught in the swirling current of life. I’m not ready to swim.
I’m trying to scale back a little bit and get myself on solid ground. The kids have one more month of school and then I’ll need to be fully present for them.
We still haven’t made any changes to Kalkidan’s room, but I must start soon. We’re setting up a guest bed in preparation for Laura and her husband who are visiting Memorial Day weekend. Then Noah and Katie will stay with us for a week before they move to Seattle.
I need to time to breathe and make changes at a pace we can all bear. I need to think about Kalkidan’s garden and what we want there. We need some sort of marker with her name and the dates of her life. This is hard for me.
I’m going to slow down, step back a little, and set a new pace for this month.
My one priority beyond a gentler life is to focus on Annarose as she completes her last month of high school. She graduates on June 5th – more about that in another post.
How are all of you? If you have a moment, tell me what May holds for your life. Have a wonderful day, friends.
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