We’re catapulting toward the end of the school year with all of its special activities, while also preparing for my dad’s memorial service and Noah’s graduation from medical school.
I’m filled with emotions that don’t all seem to fit together. I’m so sad about losing my dad, and I’m dreading the wave of grief I know will hit at his memorial service. I’m also looking forward to seeing family and friends when we celebrate him next week.
My kids are flying in, beginning with Isaiah today, followed by Hannah and David tomorrow, and Annarose on Sunday. Thankfully, Samuel lives in Portland which is only a few hours away. Noah and Katie are moving to Seattle this weekend and will already be there; Mimi also lives in Seattle. The younger kids will drive over with us.
I’m so proud of Noah and Katie, and all they’ve accomplished these last four years. It’s hard to believe medical school is done! He’s doing an OB/GYN residency at the University of Washington followed by a maternal-fetal medicine fellowship. It’s interesting because he was my first high-risk pregnancy and I had a wonderful perinatologist; she must have made an impact on him.
I love having a big family – truly love it. The challenge in a week like this is coordinating where everyone is staying, who is going to the airport, what my younger crew is wearing, where Zoe will stay for the first weekend, my trip to Seattle, when Russ leaves for Seattle, and then the emotional minefield of grief. Did I mention we still don’t know where we’re leaving our dog? My heart races just thinking about the logistical madness.
The end result is I’m not sleeping. The last few nights I’ve opened my eyes to see 3-something on the clock and couldn’t fall back asleep, which is why I’m here chatting with you in the wee hours.
I’m also realizing just how few days of school will remain when we settle back in after our two back-to-back trips. As I came downstairs this morning, the thought of swimming lessons struck me, which made me think about camp, and travel, and just how I’ll occupy my boys this summer.
Claire has loads of travel on her horizons and a summer job lifeguarding at the local pool. Zoe has work and a bit of travel planned too. Beza graduates in June and is moving to San Diego for Job Corp.
As for me, I know I’ve said it so many times, but I really do plan to declutter! It may be an ongoing process for the next decade.
I’m also loving working on my podcast and new website, The Adoption Connection. Wow, it’s fun to have a new, exciting project. My co-host, Melissa, and I set out to create a podcast and have since expanded our project to create a resource-rich website for adoptive and foster moms. I’m excited to share it with you as it develops. You can stay updated on our progress by liking our Facebook page.
Last summer I traveled a lot. This summer I’ll be holding down the fort while Russ and some of the kids travel. I’m okay with that, especially because we’re continuing toward our goal to create opportunities for connection with our kids.
I sent my friends-letter, 5 Thankful Thoughts, yesterday. It’s short, sweet, a little more personal, and it’s one of my favorite things to write. I’d love to send it to you, too.
Have a great weekend, my friend. If you’re feeling overwhelmed, like I am, take some deep breaths, and grab hold of a few small things that give you joy. I, for one, will be sipping lots of coffee and listening to favorite podcasts as I drive to Seattle. Then I’ll be hugging my big kids and family!
What’s coming up for you? Share it with me in a comment!
With courage and hope for the journey.