Remember the old playground “merry go ’rounds”? We would spin and spin, leaning back, our faces tilted toward the sky. When it finally stopped, usually by dragging our feet in the dirt, we would stumble off, dizzy and unable to walk.
That pretty much sums up the end of 2017 for me. I crossed the finish line of 2017 feeling a little shocked it was over and wishing I had more time to tie it up neatly with a bow.
With no time for reflection, I plowed right into 2018 with the “Goals for 2018” page completely blank in my new planner. There is now a “post-it” on that page with some thoughts, but I haven’t filled anything in.
True confession, my Christmas tree is still standing in the bay window of the living room adorned with colorful lights. The ornaments are packed in boxes, but the tree still stands. A pile of stockings rests on the sideboard in the dining room alongside a small stack of Christmas dishes. Other boxes sit in the living room awaiting some sort of order.
Apart from sitting in an empty room waiting to have blood drawn, today may be the first time I’ve been alone since before Thanksgiving. I’m breathing in the quiet, willing my brain and spirit to calm.
The critical voice in my head says, “You’ve already blown it, 2018 has only begun and you are behind on everything.” Then I remember it’s only January 5th and I have 360 more days to set goals and accomplish them.
Tomorrow Russ will help me heave the tree out the living room window and then drag it to the pasture. Boxes will be stacked in the barn. Laundry will be put away.
The blurry vision I have for 2018 will begin to come into focus. Good news – God will not leave me floundering, but I need to get quiet enough to hear his voice.
Anyone else feel this way? I would love to hear from you.
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Speaking of social media, I’m posting on my Insta Story as often as I can. The unedited nature of it appeals to me. Also, I’m much better at replying to messages and comments on Instagram than anywhere else!
My speaking schedule for 2018 is filling and I’m praying for exactly the right times and places to serve. First up is the Refresh Conference where I’ll be teaching at the Early Morning Mom’s gathering, facilitating a “Giving Voices to Siblings” panel, and sharing at another breakout, “Hope for the really, really, really hard kids.”
At the end of the month, Russ and I are speaking together at a very small retreat for couples parenting challenging children from “hard places.” This event in Texas is going to be very special and I’m looking forward to it.
I have dreams and plans for One Thankful Mom in 2018. My heart’s desire is to make this site more useful to you, offer helpful materials, and be a friend and mentor to you. And remember the book? It’s inching forward and I’ll be sure to let you know when I have news to share.
Happy 2018 from the bottom of my heart. If you’re off to a rocky start, you are not alone; hang out with me and we’ll figure it out together.
One final thought, I launched my reading for 2018 with Present Over Perfect by Shauna Niequist. I’m two chapters in and love it. Join me?
How is the start of 2018 going for you? What are you dreaming/planning/hoping? What are you reading? I would love to see a comment from you, friend.
Much love, hope, and courage for the journey,