100% Chance

I am being stretched to live out what I believe. I can talk about trusting Jesus, and write of my belief that he is in complete control of every detail of my life; but the reality is that this morning I woke up thinking about statistics. I considered what life will be like knowing that despite medication and following all instructions, I could still get another DVT, and I felt scared. I kept playing little scenarios through my mind of what would happen if I had a pulmonary embolism.

Then the Holy Spirit gave me the most comforting thought. Medically speaking, there is a 50% chance I’ll have another DVT.  But the truth is, there is a 100% chance I will either have a clot, or a 100% chance that I won’t. My blood is completely under the control of my Savior. Not to be overly dramatic, but the blood of Jesus shed on the cross saved me for all eternity, and I can trust Him with mine.

I’m at the top of a hill that I don’t want to go down, but I’m pretty sure it’s only steep for a short distance. Then it will level out, life will feel normal again, and we’ll move on – just with a few more medical appointments in my schedule.

I’ll get back to writing about adoption and kids soon – and I’m looking forward to it.

Lisa

 

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Let me introduce myself. Russ and I are the parents of twelve children by birth and adoption, and sometimes more through foster care. I'm the creator of One Thankful Mom which has been as much of a gift to me as to my readers. In 2011 I became a TBRI® Pracitioner* and have lived and breathed connected parenting ever since. I'm deeply honored to be the co-author, together with the late Dr. Karyn Purvis, of The Connected Parent; it is her final written work. I love speaking at events for adoptive and foster parents. I'm also the co-founder of The Adoption Connection, a podcast and resource site for adoptive moms. I mentor and encourage adoptive moms so you can find courage and hope in your journeys of loving your children well.

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  1. linedancergal
    March 27, 2013

    Isn't that always the way? It's so easy to spout stuff about trusting God and quite another thing to actually live it! I often think that when I'm giving someone advice. I KNOW it's good advice and the best thing for them, but I also know that it's advice I might not be able to take myself if I was in their situation.
    I think the thing is to never give up. Yes you'll forget how big our God is sometimes, and sometimes you'll want to take control of things for yourself, but as soon as you realise what you've done, fess up and start over. Isn't it just the BEST that we get to do that? To start over with a clean slate. To get second, third, fourth…. chance? Sometimes I find it hard to believe that I can have yet another chance, especially when this one must be number 736 lol.

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    1. Lisa Qualls
      March 27, 2013

      Yes indeed, I am so thankful for the "do-overs" God gives me every single day.

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  2. Chantelle
    March 27, 2013

    Always love hearing from you regardless of the topic. Share whatever is on your heart – it always blesses me! ((hug))

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    1. Lisa Qualls
      March 27, 2013

      Thanks, Chantelle. It's been hard to focus on much else this last week.

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  3. Lisa Qualls
    March 27, 2013

    That is a great story, Laurel, and such a testimony to the power of our loving Father.

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  4. Dawn K
    March 27, 2013

    Thank you, LIsa, for admitting your doubts. You are human. On another note, my husband and I are following your story with Dimples as we apply to the same place for healing for our son. Praying God's will be done. Thank you for sharing!

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    1. Lisa Qualls
      March 27, 2013

      Dawn, please email me if I can be of help as you sort this out.

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  5. Mavis
    March 28, 2013

    That is a great "Good Friday" message if I ever heard one! One drop of His blood…
    Praying for you guys!

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    1. Lisa Qualls
      March 28, 2013

      Thank you, Mavis! Have a blessed Good Friday.

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  6. Mary
    March 28, 2013

    When we were foster parents to our now adopted son, I remember playing the percentages game. It felt like Russian roulette to me. The story of Jesus' birth brought me a lot of comfort as I started thinking about how precarious the whole thing was! That Mary wasn't stoned when she turned up pregnant. That they made it to Bethlehem before she gave birth. That she had a stable and wasnt out in the cold. That Joseph, a bachelor, was able to deliver the baby to a teenager without a midwife or mother present. That they weren't killed by Herod's troops. That they weren't killed in Africa. That they made it back home again. That the Magi brought money to get them to Egypt in the first place . . . all so precarious, and yet none of it precarious at all. I loved your 100% idea. It reminded me of that time. And then our 100% was he was our son! Unbelievable.

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    1. Lisa Qualls
      March 28, 2013

      That is such a great observation, Mary. I'm going to take comfort in the story of Jesus' birth too. I don't know if somebody else said it first, but my friend, Michele, says that we are always safest in the center of God's will. I love that.

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  7. Mary
    March 28, 2013

    Hi Lisa, I find it so difficult to not allow those moments of " what if" or " what would happen if…" to sneak up on me. I had a Pulmonary Embolism…40, healthy, bio mom, foster mom, adopted mom and planning to marry my long time boyfriend (who also happened to being me to Christ :-))…a few days before a business trip we decided to get married (not waiting for a full wedding and all the planning that goes into it) because "what if something should happen to me? What about the kids?" And then it happened…a PE in a foreign country. My husband faithfully said…no worries…you're too useful to God, He won't let anything happen to you :)…6 years later, 2 more adoptions, 15 +- foster children…several more adoptions underway…God is still using me! Praise God!!! You seem pretty useful to God too :-)….I see God's perfect timing in all of this and I will continue to pray for your health and family. May God bless you and protect you!

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    1. Lisa Qualls
      March 28, 2013

      Mary, you just encouraged me so much! Thank you for taking the time to share this.

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  8. Leese
    March 30, 2013

    Praying for you still!!

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    1. Lisa Qualls
      March 30, 2013

      Thank you, Leese. I would love to hear how you are doing.

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  9. Melissa
    March 30, 2013

    Lifting you up in prayer. THANK YOU for your transparency. You bless so many, myself included. We are in the palm of His hands.

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    1. Lisa Qualls
      March 30, 2013

      I love that, Melissa. Thank you.

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  10. Guest
    March 30, 2013

    This is a practical question–not meant for public display. Have they considered putting in a inferior vena cava filter? Not sure if this option has been discussed with you or if it would even be a consideration in your case, but perhaps it is something that you could explore with your doctor.

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