Thanksgiving week, and I have so much to be thankful for – so much, yet I woke yesterday morning wondering how I will push myself to plan a holiday dinner and carry the weight of creating a special time for my family.
I have fond memories of Thanksgivings spent with cousins and my Nana, playing cards for hours, the dads watching football in the basement, olives on our fingers as we waited for dinner. And the food – so much good food.
I miss my enthusiasm and sense of direction. Will it come back? I hope so – I think so.
Grief is a wild beast; an unpredictable, heavy weight pressing on me.
My spirits were lifted yesterday when Noah and Katie, together with Katie’s sister, Molly, came for family dinner. Russ and Claire were at a 4H fundraiser and I didn’t feel like cooking a big dinner, but when three big kids showed up, willing to help cook and keep me company in the kitchen, I got motivated. It was fun being together and by the time they left, I felt much better about Thanksgiving.
Best of all, Advent is coming this Sunday. Although sorrow weighs on our hearts, we look toward the coming of Jesus, our savior who came to be with us in the midst of it.
In our accident, in the crashing of metal and crushing of our bodies, Jesus was there. In the ambulance and hospital, Jesus was there. In the unimaginable moments of the funeral home and gathering later with hundreds of friends and family to celebrate Kalkidan, Jesus was there. In the months of recovery and healing my wounded body, and in the nearly two years of healing our broken hearts, Jesus is still with us.
My friend, Sarah, reminded me of these words from the Christmas hymn, Good Christian Men Rejoice,
Christ was born for this
Christ was born for this
Indeed, He was born for this; He came to be with us, to join us in our brokenness and bring us to wholeness.
We’re slowly finding our way, and this Thanksgiving is one more step in our journey. We’ll miss Hannah in Minnesota, Isaiah in St. Louis, and of course, Kalkidan.
We’ll gather close with the ones we love right here – and give thanks.
In happy news, we’ve added Create Your Own necklaces to the Thankful Moms Etsy store. You choose a word bar with the phrase that means the most to you, then add charms and beads, to create a one-of-a-kind necklace. I can’t wait to see what people create!
We’ve also added two new phrases for cuffs and bracelets: “wholehearted,” and “in Christ alone.”
You might like my recent post, Four Simple Advent Traditions for Everyone. I share simple ideas and free resources for celebrating Advent as well as many books I’ve used over the years. Yesterday I added a link to the free download for the Jesse tree ornaments I use with my family.
I don’t know if there will be time to write another post this week, but I’ll be sure to post on my Thankful Moms Facebook page, and maybe even on Instagram.
I love watching for deals on Amazon to share with you – especially on Black Friday. You won’t find me in the stores, I’ll be home in comfy clothes hanging out with my family, eating pie for breakfast (why yes, we will) and shopping for bargains at the same time.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving, friends. I wish you could stop over for pie and coffee.