I was rocking Honeybee the other night and as we rocked, she told me how broken her heart is. She said that her heart had been filling up with love, but then I missed some days of rocking and it all emptied out. Her heart broke into a million pieces. As we rocked I told her that I understood how hard it was for her to have me gone and that I was sorry I had to be away from her, but we needed to work on helping her learn to hold onto the love in her heart.
She continued to express her disappointment in me and all at once, a bit of truth pierced my thoughts. I looked in her eyes and said,
Honeybee, my love is going to disappoint you. It will never be perfect, no matter how much I try. I will make mistakes and even let you down.
She looked surprised.
Do you know that there is only one person who can give you perfect love? That person is Jesus. Not only that, He is the only one who can heal your heart.
I can’t heal your heart, Daddy can’t heal your heart, Mrs. Gray can’t heal your heart — only Jesus. We can all help and do our part, and we will do our best, but only Jesus can heal your heart.
In that moment, a weight lifted off of me. I have been striving so hard, working so hard, and thinking so much about how to help my children. I have been carrying the weight of their brokenness in my heart and mind and it was taking a toll.
But I can’t heal their hearts on my own; I’m just part of the team. The Great Healer is Jesus. He alone knows my children’s stories and their wounds. He alone has the power to touch their deepest hurts.
Let’s not carry more than we are meant to bear – let’s lay down the brokenness of our children, ourselves, and our families, and trust the One who loves us to bring healing.