I’m plowing through my to-do list and getting ready to head to Seattle tomorrow for The Refresh Conference. It doesn’t begin until Friday evening, but I’m flying over tomorrow to spend a little time with my parents, with my friend, Kathleen, and with Isaiah. I’m just a little bit excited to have Isaiah speaking with me on Friday night.
Toward the end of my session, I was planning to talk about how our adoptions have influenced our children and changed their lives (in both hard and good ways), and then realized that Isaiah would be sitting in the audience listening, so I invited him to come up and speak. He is good before a crowd and I’m quite sure people would rather hear my kids’ thoughts from one of my kids, rather than from me.
Yesterday was hard. A medical thing came up with Dimples, not a big thing, but I was taken by surprise and had questions about what was going on. I have to say, I am really bad at letting other people make decisions for my children. The protective part of me rises up and I have to work so hard not to say things I shouldn’t. I was seriously in knots all morning yesterday; all is well, it just stinks. I wish I could step back a little bit, but I’ve given six years of my life to Dimples and I can’t just instantly drop my mothering instincts. Like I said, it stinks.
On a completely unrelated note in this random post, I need recommendations of computer games for Eby and Little Man. My older kids had games that were on CD’s, not on the internet, so it was easy to control. Yesterday I dug some of them out, and my computer didn’t seem to have a clue what to do with them – I guess they are too old. I’m open to buying some games, or using games found online. They can earn 30 min. of computer time and my rule is no games that involve killing people. I miss the days of Putt-Putt and Treasure Mountain.
If you think of me, please pray that my nerves will be calmed, and that my talk will speak to the hearts of people. I’m trying to shorten it up a little bit to allow more time for Isaiah; it’s surprisingly hard to know what to cut.
One more thing, I was truly impressed with the insightful comments many of you wrote in response to our Tuesday Topic. Thank you – you are an amazing group of people.
Have a great day, friends.